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    Gaaahahagggha I don't know what to do.  I mentioned before that my friend Natalie invited me to a Bible chat at school.  That was today and I don't know what I expected but I don't like it.  It was 3 people-me, Natalie, and the guy from her church who runs the thing.  He's actually very cool and he took the same piano class I'm taking so we talked about piano for a while and he's really cute too.  Anyway, he started it with  a prayer where he said "Heavenly father, thank you for bringing Cara to us", at which point I'm thinking, "Crap, what am I into here?"  Then we went into the discussion.  It was about Jesus sticking up for us and how we have to stick up for Jesus by defending him and loving people and we had to share stories about people who stood up for us.  It was very well organied with Bible passages and discussion prompts, but it's still not my thing.  As awkward as that was, I figured I could fo through this a few more time, it's just a smiling-and-nodding thingr, right?  But they also invited me to their church and Natalie gave me a ticket for some kind of sports themed service this Sunday.  I have a solid excuse for not going this time but I'll feel so bad if they keep inviting me and I keep saying no. 
    I warned Natalie when she invited me that I'm not the religious type but i guess she sort of blew that off, and the other guy must think I came because I really want to talk about Jesus.  So it's not only awkward, but I feel bad for being there even though I don't necessarily agree with or believe in a lot of what they're saying.  If Natalie asks me what I thought about it I'll just tell her that it's weird for me because I was never into religion very much.  I guess I'll still to some more meeting until I can think of a better way to get out of this.